fucking hell jesus chris

i hate everyone

and everything

i think i need to go back to the doctors.

also, if you're male

i hope you die.

da da da daa cba with all this proper typing shizzle

so, ive given up typing like a nerd for the time being as i really cbaaa!

today was shite
i went to the doctors
boo hoo was a fail of a trip
suck my dick dr heelis; and if you can see this
soz bby but you're crud.

im well looking forward to tomorrow with erainian mctomlin and gaynah and whoever else
and im seeing james ;3
cutai.
then going to gaymix with erin to probably do what i do best
yeeeep; slut.


most of all im incredibly excited for this;

PEACE.

In a mad world only the mad are sane.

I wish that without me your heart would break
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me you couldn't eat
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep.

I've taken to not being regretful.

Easter FUUUUN

I honestly don't give a shit about anyone other than myself
"Two faced nasty little bitch"
I'M SO LOVED.

Pahaha I haven't been on here for ages, which I probably should start doing this some more, as it's a lovely way to vent my anger, which I have a lot of; firstly let's talk about wankers.

I fucking put up with you for so long and put you first and did so much for you and tried to make you happy, but no.
One little thing that prevented things and then you go off bitching calling me a "crap friend" and that I used you, DID I FUCK. Everytime I think about it, I cry due to the fact you're such a selfish little bitch. If I could I'd change what happened but obviously I can't. I'm sorry I put my family first, but you need to sort out your priorites and learn it's not always about you you selfish little bitch. I also hate boys; little twats who ignore you for ages, dump you via text and still have the fucking cheek to wear your bracellets.
FUCK YOU.

AAAAAAAH
I'm also incredibly ill, with a migrane and I have lost the ability to see out of my left eye, FUCKKKK YOU PAIN.
BUT EASTER IS HERE AND WE HAVE TWO WEEKS OFF SCHOOL

To do list;
See James, a lot.
SLEEP LIKE FUCK.
Eat.
Spend a lot of time with the girls, preferably getting incredibly messy.
And A little bit of revision ;)



I hate everyone and if someone I hate annoys me anytime soon my fist will hit them in the face incredibly hard.
Peace, love and all that shit.

Rough weekend

i haven't been on here in a while
so much has happened but bare cba to write it down

BUT MK BOWWWWWWL YEAAAAH

frist time in ages;

hmm a lot of things have happened recently; making me think i should change myself dramtically.

In one sense i should, in another, i shouldn't.
for lent i've given up drugs and smoking, it's proving to be a real diffculty.
though, if i don't do it i'll dissapoint, and i hate that.

shut it

i'm going to sort myself out
i'm going to move on
i'm gonna stop being a shit friend
i'm gonna stop being a slag
i'm going to succeed in school
i'm going to get a decent boyfriend and have a sturdy relationship with someone who'll be simply amazing and not let me down.


YES I FUCKING WELL AM AND I'M NOT GONNA BE HAPPY UNTILL I'M NOT.

shut up callum?

emily's was ace
now, time to sleep

hey babe xxxx

"light that smoke, one for giving up on me and one just cause they’ll kill you sooner than my expectations. to my favorite liar and to my favourite scar, “i could have died with you”, i hope you choke on those words that kiss that bottle - confess, so bury me in memory. now ash yourself out on the insides, i said i loved you but i lied. let’s play this game called “when you catch fire”, i wouldn’t piss to put you out. stop burning bridges and drive off of them so I can forget about you, bury me in memory, his smile’s your rope so wrap it tight around your throat. on the drive home we joke about the kid you used to see and his jealousy, breaking hearts has never looked so cool as when you wrap your car around a tree, your makeup looks so great next to his teeth."

i hope serious harm comes to you, rendering you unconcious. i then hope you get eaten alive by flesh munching bacteria which will painfully and slowly kill you. you'll then wake up half way through and realise, NO ONE FUCKING LIKES YOU.

little pepsi has a new home :'(

ah so today, i finally found a new home for my cat.
it's a real shame that he can't stay with my dad, euwy :(
though he's going to katies, the crazy cat ladies, and i know he'll be looked after super good.
AWWH D:



anyway, today's been shit, i didn't bother going to school, as i feel shit, cannot stop crying and have lost my voice.
i hate this mess i've got myself into, i don't even know what i can do to fix this as people wont even talk to me.
I dislike being this upset and angry, because when i am i go into distruction mode and try to ruin everyone else's happiness.
Though, when i'm upset i tidy my room, and stop eating, dread.




also im really glad that that skank got bottled in the head, shame they didn't fuck up your butterz face, they could've done some good ya know :)
You really amaze me, you never give up do you you fucking sket wannabe.
karma got you fuckiing goood, whoever did it is gonna get praise from me when i see them, i'm not even joking :)

I washed my hair for the first time since saturday today, and completely forgot to seperate the two colours, now my fringe has pink in it, fuck.






I honestly do love you, and i'm so sorry, I shouldn't of done it, but it wasn't only my fault, i was wrecked. Now i have bruised knees, and red eyes from where i've been crying so much, fuck sake D:

sod this;

so
i'm cold, i've cried myself to sleep today
and i couldn't be unhappier.
weekend was good, friday with the gash, they make me so happy, yet saturday was raad.
yesterday on the other hand was shit;
i spent the day in trackies and a big jumper doing nothing but watching a film and coughing like a bitch.
i think i'm gonna give upwith everyone and everything for now
because simply, i cannot be arsed.

have some photos;
Remix; tish's party.
i look like i'm on coke or something, lies.


Tom looks like someones screwing him up the arse whilst max is wanking over it.








Max and I, I love him so much
ahaaaaa i look like i'm a drug addict or something with the mess on my face lmfao, i should see him more.

crazy

so, my throat hurts
my head is banging
and my ears are ringing
yet i'm so content

i think i might steer clear of alcohol, untill at least, next week? ;)

eheeeeee going to be soo rad!
i get to see joey and marky etc at pendulum wiv APPPPPPPPRILLL .
so angry though, yet again cannot being arsed to text me back is not an excuse
sort it out fucker.

last night was awfully good! got to seeee my boys for the first time since september ;|
max, wesley jonny lawrence joe and james! eeeeeh i've missed themm!


how briefx

you can be my acid queen untill the end of time

i'm happy now april lucas biffy clyro mark cigarettes being warm make me so fucking content.

seriously

not happy.
i really want everything to be all happy again.
so fucking sick and tired of shit being said about me, i don't fucking care if you've got a problem with me just keep it to your fucking self.

You know what.

fuck everyone
i hate everyone and everything
certain people should just drop dead
also
I'm gonna go back to how i was before, and if you don't like it
drop dead you cunt.

"One Must Say, I Simply ADORE Your Teeth"

Hm, today started out shit.
I got my mum to drive me all the way to mark's, yet he wasn't even home, I was fuming.
I then came home, ate, tidied my room a ridiculous amount, then was just being in a shit mood, untill mark decided to contact me and explain, and then tell me he was walking to letchworth, which made me think, "yeah right". So I just sat at home doing nothing, then he messaged me on facebook telling me to meet him, though I hadn't a clue where the fuck he was.
When I eventually found him we went to mine and watched Saw V, it was nice just doing nothinggg.

eeek i'm so happy.
i'm currently drinking apple juice, listening to biffy and doing revision and i couldn't ask for anything more.


BYEEEE.
okay, i lie, maybe a cigarette...

well, mr maker he's got it made.

love?
love?
love?
FUCK OFF.
it's so fucking overrated and over used.
people throw the word around as if it's meaningless.
there are various aspects to love;
Friendship wise:
for example, my best friend, April. I honestly love her, love is when you can talk to someone for hours about random shit, bitch for fucking ages and never be angry or disappointed, even for a millisecond, I believe this form of love is unconditional.
Family wise:
When you love your family, because basically, you have to.
But, they're always there for you etc, it's pretty much unconditional unless you're pretty unfortunate.
Relationship wise;
FUCK OFF.

I believe love is unconditional, love without any condition to it at all, you love someone throughout their flaws. When age/size/race/sex or culture doesn't play a role in it, nothing matters as long as you both love eachother and are content.




FUCK YES.

I Proper Fancy Elly Rawson

ii luff y00h s00 mucH bAbii3 gy4l
u r s000O00O0000000000OOOOoooo pwetti3 nd gawjuzzz
luff uuu u r de best boyfr3nD Evaaa xxooxoxoxx

Whats my name? Do you really care? Give it to me now, cuz i'm a pornstarrrrrrrrrrr

This post is dedicated to my best friend; April Lucas.
I love her an incredible amount, words probably cannot put it into perspective, I probably take her to granted half of the time, yet she means so much to me.
For endless laughing fits, ones that last for hours.
For depressing phone calls and msn conversations, complaining about how life sucks.
For laying in bed at silly o'clock bitching.
For watching films and getting easily distracted, and taking the piss.
For spending days doing nothing.
For getting stoned off our faces and irritating everyone as we're in our own little world.
For singing random parts of conversations, and thinking it to be completely normal.
For making animal noises at awkward moments, then crying because it's so funny.
For drinking beer at three in the afternoon in public and hiding when we see people incase they tell us off.
For posting condoms through peoples letterboxes.
For spending a lot of time in McDonalds together.
For cotches with Jake, drinking tea, having a cheeky cigarette and watching skins and bitching.
For Bancroft sessions calling people names then bumping into them in sainsburies.
For making fucking hilarious photo's of people, insulting them beyond beliefe.
For bullying people to points they cry.
For drinking wine and beer, crying and sending abusive texts to total fucking dickwads.
For dressing up at any chance.
For being cats together, and irritating anyone to the point they banned us from meowing around them.
For acting like we're on crack when we're together, even though it's because we're so happy.
For sex pad times.
For making up words.
For talking with lisps.
For waving and pointing at people in cars.
For dancing in sexual manors, either in the freezing cold, off our faces on benches, or at remix.
For you putting up with my whorish ways.
For you always being there for me, no matter what.
For hour long phone calls about nothing.
For amazing highs together.
For you being beautiful.
For funny pictures.
For jizzing everywhere, especially flooding Hitchin.
For asking the man in sainsburies for pussy juice.
For you being my best friend, I honestly haven't got a single clue to as where i'd be without you anymore, you're like my sister, I love you oh so much, Thankyou April, for everything.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

fuck it.

i hate everyone in the english speaking world.
you're an acne ridden whore stop telling people my fucking business.

goodnight fuckers.

Acts Like A Twat But She's A Top Banana Might As Well Admit She's Addicted To Love

Today, has been such a good day.
I went to bed at roughly three last night, i was reading Breaking Dawn, and I have to admit, though it's confusing as fuck. it's fucking amazing. The way it's written is outstanding, I can't put it down, I intend to finish it by tuesday.
I woke up at about 9ish, due to my mum coming in screaming at me as I took her GHDS, mm jizz. And then because I "RUINED THE FUCKING SOFA" liar.
I got up about 10ish, to find my mother had been to sainsburies, HELLO FOOOD mm, I ate a croissant then went back to bed, to awake at 3pm to find my sister on the driveway on her arse laughing so much I thought she'd have a heart attack, I love my family.








I love april oh so much, if I could i'd spend every day with her, I could never be angry with her for longer than half a split second, she's perfection in every way possible, she's gorgeous and possibly one of the funniest and nicest people i've met, there seriously need to be more groovy chicks like april rosmary lucas in this world. She's like the sister that my two sisters have never been, she's always there to catch me when I fall, and you know what? That does it for me. It really does, without her i'd be a mess. So thankyou for everything, I honestly love you, unconditionally.




GOODNIGHT

"I'm going to smoke untill my lungs bleed"

I HATE THIS WEATHER
I HATE THE SNOW
THE FUCKING COLD
THE ICE
EVERYTHING ABOUT IT MAKES ME WANT TO STAB SOMEONE.
It has ruined todays delights of, going to aprils, going out smoking untill my lungs bleed, going home drinking wine and watching skins with my baby april and jake then not going to sleep untill about 6 tomorrow morning.
FUCK MY LIFE.
also i can't see mark, what the shit is happening, everytime we arrange something, something ALWAYS goes wrong, SO ANGRY. It's been over a fucking week, SORT IT OUUT FUCKING WEATHER.

No school yet again, whey, I'm going to fail my exams though, sucks to be me right,

So, today is going to consist of sitting in my room in a strop, listening to Florence + The Machine eating quorn lasange and drinking lemsip because i'm fucking ill.
I despise this weather, as i've already mentioned.
I was meant to go to the orthadontist today, but I really can't be fucked, luckily enough they rung and said the stupid bint can't get there, whey. I wish I had nice teeth :(

I want summer to hurry up, honestly, this month is hectic. The only thing i'm hating about summer is adams wedding, i'm going to ruin it.

I want to go on holiday now, urgh or just go out, I hate living on the last road of my estate, I might just walk to hitchin or something, allow.
I'm craving nicotine, yet i don't have any. Thanks to some kind people, no names (april & mark) using the last of my emergancy dry shit up, I have nothing, fuck ma life.


GOODBYE CUNTS.